Assalamualaikum,
As always, if not in a good mood, the place that I would go is here. Right now, my mood is 'down'. Like system 'down', shut 'down' and bla bla. My practical day ended so early today, it was all because of us. So, before making any excuses, the root of the problem is us. It's the root of the problem, but the main problem is another way around. That's one thing to clarify, first thing first that must be understood.
Anyway, I am so thankful today, that I could finally see with my own two eyes a live surgery in front of me, mastectomy surgery where the patient's left breast was removed because of the presence of the cyst inside her breast (from what I understand). But eventually, we got the chance to see that surgery only for not more than 15 minutes. Then we were told to go out. At first, we thought it was for some other reason. And, it turned out, not. The head of the surgery department (OT) which we have to appoint him, called us and started the ugly-truth-comparisons between us and the Malaysian students/system. I know it is all the truths, but then, I am all dedicated to be a doctor, a good doctor, why would compare us so violently like "even the students from UKM, UM are 25 times better than you". Like I know I am soon gonna be a Russian graduate doctor, I know what class am I in (if that what Malaysian nurses said), but, there's a way to encourage us.
Among what he said (apart of the quote) are:
1) Russians are capitalist. They all just want money from you guys, in the end, you guys are just going to be no-function doctor. That's why belambak-lambak patients died.
2. Go back and study your Physio, Anatomy, Patho, Biochemistry, Pharmaco. Revise them all. It's your foundation. Without any foundation, you cannot just come here and walk in knowing about the department.
3. Your syllabus are nonsense. Why should you be like nurse assistant? (I said, so that we could have working-based experiences), but he said NO.
4. He asked about the function of kidney, counter-current. Non of us can answer that properly. Of course, he banged us. For God sake, I had never been so angry when my I knew that my teacher taught me nothing. Came in class, and came out, minding our own business.
5. You guys should not be separated from the Russian/English medium. You guys should study Russian medium, be with the Russians.
All these mocks, babbles, somehow really struck me deeply, like very very deeply. I know, I might chose the wrong country to study in, but what I know now all that I can do is, make the best of it. Yet, 2 years of studying, I'm not making the best of it. In this point, I am guilty. Guilty for not knowing each and every single thing in my books, guilty for not forcing my teacher to force us to study Biochemistry, guilty for being in the 'comfort zone' of Volgograd graduates are actually kinda good. Apparently, it might be them, but it depends on you, back to back, it is you.
I might have to repeat all the syllabus back. No matter what it takes. Dr. Imran, thanks for being a dick, coz' I'll consider you as a challenge. You might be a specialist, sooner or later, there's someone gonna kick other Malaysian student. Right now that I understand, other Malaysian students are really messing up with oversea students.
I'm fighting for myself from now on. Go to hell Kapusta, or whatever other lecturers there. There's only one person in my mind right now. I'll be back, Dr, I'll be back.
Salam.
As always, if not in a good mood, the place that I would go is here. Right now, my mood is 'down'. Like system 'down', shut 'down' and bla bla. My practical day ended so early today, it was all because of us. So, before making any excuses, the root of the problem is us. It's the root of the problem, but the main problem is another way around. That's one thing to clarify, first thing first that must be understood.
Anyway, I am so thankful today, that I could finally see with my own two eyes a live surgery in front of me, mastectomy surgery where the patient's left breast was removed because of the presence of the cyst inside her breast (from what I understand). But eventually, we got the chance to see that surgery only for not more than 15 minutes. Then we were told to go out. At first, we thought it was for some other reason. And, it turned out, not. The head of the surgery department (OT) which we have to appoint him, called us and started the ugly-truth-comparisons between us and the Malaysian students/system. I know it is all the truths, but then, I am all dedicated to be a doctor, a good doctor, why would compare us so violently like "even the students from UKM, UM are 25 times better than you". Like I know I am soon gonna be a Russian graduate doctor, I know what class am I in (if that what Malaysian nurses said), but, there's a way to encourage us.
Among what he said (apart of the quote) are:
1) Russians are capitalist. They all just want money from you guys, in the end, you guys are just going to be no-function doctor. That's why belambak-lambak patients died.
2. Go back and study your Physio, Anatomy, Patho, Biochemistry, Pharmaco. Revise them all. It's your foundation. Without any foundation, you cannot just come here and walk in knowing about the department.
3. Your syllabus are nonsense. Why should you be like nurse assistant? (I said, so that we could have working-based experiences), but he said NO.
4. He asked about the function of kidney, counter-current. Non of us can answer that properly. Of course, he banged us. For God sake, I had never been so angry when my I knew that my teacher taught me nothing. Came in class, and came out, minding our own business.
5. You guys should not be separated from the Russian/English medium. You guys should study Russian medium, be with the Russians.
All these mocks, babbles, somehow really struck me deeply, like very very deeply. I know, I might chose the wrong country to study in, but what I know now all that I can do is, make the best of it. Yet, 2 years of studying, I'm not making the best of it. In this point, I am guilty. Guilty for not knowing each and every single thing in my books, guilty for not forcing my teacher to force us to study Biochemistry, guilty for being in the 'comfort zone' of Volgograd graduates are actually kinda good. Apparently, it might be them, but it depends on you, back to back, it is you.
I might have to repeat all the syllabus back. No matter what it takes. Dr. Imran, thanks for being a dick, coz' I'll consider you as a challenge. You might be a specialist, sooner or later, there's someone gonna kick other Malaysian student. Right now that I understand, other Malaysian students are really messing up with oversea students.
I'm fighting for myself from now on. Go to hell Kapusta, or whatever other lecturers there. There's only one person in my mind right now. I'll be back, Dr, I'll be back.
Salam.
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