My religion said failure is normal?

Salam.

Hye everybody. It has been so so so so so so so so so long since I didn't update anyone about anything. And it has been so so so freaking frustrated when I looked at my computer, then my computer said to me: "Hey mangkuk, bace anatomy la, what are you thinking I'm porn or what staring at me !". See, that's why I just can't actually quit just like that. Anyway, anatomy is not a worst thing. Histology WAS the scariest exam of all. Maybe a lot of my friends really didn't get it when I said " I'm so so gonna be dead for Histology". Seriously, I thought I was gonna be dead.

Histology was really hard, with lots of unpredictable things like; you can get out-of-no-where slides, long and complex questions with lots of embryological things to explain, and out-of-book clinical questions. Which means, out of all these things, the only thing that looks much easier is, don't open the book because it's not worth of trying. As for me, I'm not saying that I gave up for Histology. Nope, but, I was trying, at least a bit, because what I aimed is not like what others aimed. I didn't aim for any excellent marks. I just wish me to pass the exams. For God sake, please just let this thing passes (already passed actually, like it was today -.-") like I wanna take a ride with time machine and stop when I am marrying Lisa Surihani. I'm not a genius, not like others who are geniuses but stupid at the same time. I mean, I got the 'true colors' of these geniuses are, apparently it showed up during the preparatory period just before the exam.

You did't tell others when is the consultation, and even more YOU FUCKING RETARDED GENIUSES didn't tell others, what to wear, what to bring, what to do, what gonna happen during the exam, while you just bloody went to the consultation and when you went back at home, you bloody sat at home and revised your thing WITHOUT ANY GUILT AND RESPONSIBILITY to others. Whiiiiiich you break my whole 'giving-positive-expectation' that somehow kinda parallel with Islamic teaching. You know what, you're just...

whatever.

I was just disappointed, really. Selfish ass.

Story 2: You, again?

I don't know, 2 exams passed, even though without any flying colors, nevertheless, past few days, I was just dreaming. Which I don't know, it was so random, bringin me back all my black memories. With you. Why? Why? Why?

Being crushed like a sardine-tin was extremely painful which I cannot forget and syukr that I was already cured. But it's coming back to me now. Please, I want my peace back, hopefully it was all because of the exams that I was just burdening my head with all sort of thing. I even dreamed of spinal cord. -.-"

Token of appreciation:

I wanna thanks everyone who helped me for my exams; All my housemates, Syed Aidid, Syukri, Meera Banu, and those others who involved.

Anyway, my sister Hannah Hazirah, as I already informed in my Facebook, got MRSM Langkawi, and she's gonna register there in 7 February. Congratz Mek Nah, hope you'll be better than me, because your brother was nothing there back in the last 2 years. =) My do'a will accompany you. Study elok-elok.

Salam. =)